Did AA step work last pm [hp stuff even though ive not been to aa although thinking about it more and more as a positive idea lately] and awoke today and made a big change for the better, even walking to the shop last pm for choccy(now eaten) [after posting stressed msgs on here and folk helping me] i untangled my head somewhat and adapted positively and encouragingly.
Thanks again everyone
8weeks today i am proud of that!!!:> feels so good and im DEBT free as-well.
Plus im beginning to feel a 'switch' like being outside can sometimes be FUN not just somewhere other people enjoy.