I understand. While my situation is much less intense it is similar. My xah just got out of a rehab. He sounds good. I have no idea if it will stick. It is a new level of grief or sadness though. It would be really hard if I was involved with him at the level you are. It is sadness at what could have been, what wasn't. A deep sadness for a glimpse of the dream that I held for so long...that is now dead and buried. Maybe it is the same old thing - sadness for a dream that I couldn't make happen.
You are such a good person. I hope his recovery sticks and I hope you get a friend out of it.
