Originally Posted by
nolly 
So all that is left is for me to decide what I want and need. I desperately want a family but even apart from that. Can I live my life never being able to please him. No matter what I do it is never enough.
Hugs, Nolly. Please remember to take care of yourself though this. It is a really hard decision and a hard dream to let go of, the Family that could be. Remember to take time, and as LaTeeDa tells me, sit with the feeling. Pamper yourself, even if it is some small way.