Hey Pass.>>>>great big hugs to you!
I am so sorry that you are feeling all the same feelings that I myself have... just recently went through. It not easy..heart breaking that feeling of being abandoned. I still have my days when it hits me. But it is getting easier, I know I will be alright without him, not my choice but i will be alright & so will you.
We need to look after ourselves, be kind to ourselves, you dont deserve this just as I didnt. We WILL be okay because we are strong people, we will cry but we wont die..let it get to our hearts which will break but we will heal, through time we will be alright. Be kind to yourself hun, stay strong & stay safe