Thanks Wicked. I'll start reading more there.
I do go to AA, but I feel that when I talk about my daughter that I'm "dumping" and that it may not be the place for it.
A CoDA meeting just started last week, the hour before an AA meeting I usually attend. I went, and it was really good. There were only 5 of us, so we all got to share a fair amount about our childhoods etc. I'm hoping that I will learn some tools there.
A couple examples of the last week~
My daughter got a new boyfriend, who is really nice, and good. EXACT opposite of what she has been. So, I'm happy that he will be a positive influence on her, so what did I do??? Instead of being a good mom and saying just be who you are, I told her what to do and what not to do in order to keep him around. Sick of me....
She was grounded for about 4 months, and finally got some freedom back. She went out to eat with a few friends, and texted me about 6 times in the 2 hours she was gone... What normal teenager who practically just got out of jail, does that??
Its gonna take a while to change my habits.....