Fear of revenge is something real that I understand. My XAABF and I did the cycle of break up and make up quite a number of times. Even with a protective order he did still manage to stalk and terrorize me in a number of ingenious ways. I would never feel safe and I would never be safe living within a 150 mile radius of that man. I moved a long way away. It took a few weeks but one day I was walking down the street and realized "no one knows me here!"..the utter freedom was delicious. My step grew lighter, my smile became real and I knew that my freedom was priceless and I would never return to that kind of life and fear again.
I could begin the process of re-discovering myself completely apart of his interpretations and influence.
I dang near danced in the street!!