I've got no advice that wouldn't sound trite next to a bumper sticker, Sleepie. I do know that despite the hell you've been thru, you're a smart, caring, and strong person. I also know that bottle of wine is not sweet; your addictive voice is ruthless and unconcerned with your welfare. It wants to use you, just like others have used you. You need to treat it with the same sense of outrage and repulsion you would if any of the others tried to sweet talk you. Remember, you deserve better. You really do.