You have no part in this. The best possible thing happened to you. You won the ******* lottery my friend. Go to Alanon quickly before you find yourself another alcoholic/addict to save.
You can learn to be happy, or you can **** away the best years of your life like I did. Please, for the love of God, don't be as stupid as I was.
Take what you want and leave the rest.
Cyranoak