I just read through everyone's response once again...there is so much good, helpful knowledge here. Each and every post had something new and different to point out...I want everyone to realize just how HELPFUL it all really is...it's like a dose of reality, when we have trouble seeing it for ourselves.
It is so much different to come to SR now that I have changed some...before, I would read posts, and I think I would somehow tuck them away in my stubborn little mind...because I would always go back, always give in...
But...
I later on used the tools I had learned, but now that I have applied some of my tools...and can come back and getting back to good doesn't seem so impossible now, because I have done it.
It's like instead of everyone standing behind me pushing me and yelling at me, they are in front of me, reaching their hand out for me to hold on to, saying "come on...you aren't so far away".