I know how you feel! My XABF binged every weekend for a whole entire year that we were together. I would get panic attacks every friday when the weekend was about to start because I knew he would be headed to the bar to get out of his mind drunk. I never saw him go longer than a week or two without drinking. I finally left because I could no longer have my weekends or my life ruined anymore. He would also tell me if he "didnt hate me so much, he wouldnt drink so much" and "maybe if you liked to drink more, we would get along better". Life is so short-you deserve better.