Welcome back and don't feel bad. It does take cojones to admit to relapsing" but I think almost every alcoholic or addict has done it at least once. If not hundreds of times.
I did the same thing...joined last Nov after a particularly bad drunk, was all gung-ho for about two weeks, started drinking again....then came back sorry-assed and grovelling a few weeks ago.
ZZ - love that quote! I just went to look up the Winston Churchill quote that I remembered as going something like "never, never, never, never give up..." but as it turns out that quote is often mis-remembered. It's actually: Never, never, in nothing great or small, large or petty, never give in except to convictions of honour and good sense. Never yield to force; never yield to the apparently overwhelming might of the enemy.
Which is a great quote but doesn't apply quite as well.