My AH left for his Baptism this morning and I did decide to stay home. One, I am just too terribly emotional right now to face that and that is not fair for my kids to see my like that.
Secondly, I do agree with what others said about it sounding like manipulation. If this is what he wants to do then I want him to do it on his own terms. I don't want him to think that this is a "quick fix" and will change my decision. I have seen this behavior manifest in so many different forms. For instance, he goes to AA everyday but yet still drinks. He thinks just by going will be enough to satisfy me and hide his drinking.
I'm sure that I will be judged by many members of the church because I am not there for him, but I will just figure out how to pick up the pieces and carry on.