It is terribly sad. I just told my husband a few days ago that we need to separate, and most likely divorce. I realized I'd been staying with him, living this life, because of what we dreamed our life would be. I was so attached to this fantasy in my head, of all the things we COULD do and all the things we MIGHT have. But I have to look at our marriage for what it is now. Because this is all it may ever be. And that's not enough for me. I'm crying a lot these days, but it's the dream I'm letting go of. Best to you.