Thank you for the warm and truthful replies. There is so much warmth in being sober even if it's not always rosy and cheerful. True, I don't drink a lot but I feel like I've carved out a bottomless pit for alcohol. Seems like there are many different types of alcoholics. I like myself so much more when I'm not drinking and can actually relate to people more and establish a real connection instead of the ********, drunken bonding. I will keep this forum on my iphone and computer for easy access. Let the healing begin...