Hugs sheila. The first days, weeks, months, it was very difficult for me.
2 years later life is good. Hang in there. It will get so much better.
Honestly those texts seem like manipulation to lure you back so he can keep drinking.
Everybody gets help if they want it (just like you reached SR), everyone knows AA.
Give him to his higher power, God..
Keep breathing and remember the HALT rule: hungry, angry, lonely, tired.
Scan yourself often for HALT, cover your needs, keep talking to us... you can make it....
What helped me:
yoga
therapy
posting in SR like crazy
AA/Alanon meetings
painting how I felt
writing poems
journaling
talking to my best friends
Melody Betty book "The Grief club" and "codependent no more"