I told him we're done. This is so brutally painful.
I told him 2 nights ago. We saw each other today for the first time since. We hugged, I cried. And cried. And cried. Still crying! It hurts so much to have to leave someone I love so much. He has been understanding and kind. It almost makes it harder.
And then he'll text me things that just remind me I'm doing the right thing. Things like:
If I were in your shoes I'd be there.
I feel like I'm hanging off a cliff and there's no one there to help me.
I understand you don't love me.
I just want my life back.
He goes from clear headed to completely irrational. Is that the addiction? I haven't texted anything back because I know nothing I could say would even matter. If he doesn't know I love him by now, well, screw it.
This is his journey now. It just breaks my heart. I hope he'll find himself.