So put on your big girl pants and go forth and conquer the world--it is yours to be had! (within reason, let's not get carried away here.)
Yep, I got on my big girl panties. Let's do this thing! (conquer the world, or maybe we could take da U.P.!)
It is almost a feeling of being emotionally raped and I am still so traumatized from the situation. My feelings are worse now than they were when we were together. Very horrible. I plan on attending Al Anon.
I am so sorry for your trauma. I understand how very painful it is. I lost myself in my first marriage, the drinking was my problem for sure, but it did numb out some of the worst of it. It is a form of PTSD, being constantly hounded about your supposed inadequacies.
It helped me to talk to a doctor who specialized with people who had been exposed long term to verbal and emotional abuse. I still have my triggers, but I am alive now. Really alive.
Take care of yourself.
Beth