I agree. You sound like a very smart, strong woman. Stay as far away from that guy as possible. Make effort to meet people at school, people who are doing what you are doing. Create yourself a peer group. Have confidence in yourself so that you don't look to someone else, (like some older guy who has already done what you're doing) to meet the needs only you can fulfill. Make as many girlfriends as you can! Focus on you and your studies, not some old, smelly drunk guy