Feeling so beat down
Its only been a week or so since my XABF and I broke up. Everything that he did and said to me in the past is just now starting to effect me. Now that he is gone, I am left with so many bad memories and my self-esteem is so low. I have never been around anyone in my life who went out of their way more than him to make me feel so inadequit in life. I was never smart enough, rich enough, pretty enough, thin enough, funny enough, whatever whatever etc. Its my fault for letting him do this to me but now I feel like a dog that has been beaten to the point where I feel ashamed to be in public and I'm paranoid everyone feels that way about me. It really took a toll on my emotions and my soul. I know its all in my imagination but I really do feel very forlorn and guarded. I use to be so outgoing. Emotional and Mental abuse is just as bad as physical abuse. Can anyone relate to these feelings after a breakup or divorce and how did you rise above it?