atalose, I feel your pain. this does really suck! I miss my ah alot. the I love you, the smiles when I came home from work and he was so excited to talk and have dinner together..all the good stuff..makes me sad.
then I think of all the bad stuff and get angry.
so I sit here alone, each and every day. its very hard. my family calls and checks up on me, but other than that, Im alone.
Im getting tired of it, really tired..something has to give, something good has to happen, but I just dont see it yet at least not today.
I know my reply probaly didnt help you as I wish I had answers, but I wanted to let you know your not alone and also that reading some posts about how people survived a breakup and even found love and happiness again gives us hope. we cant lose hope, hope for us.
hang in there atalose, remember this too shall pass and boy do we know these feelings of being up or down do pass, its just getting through them that hurts.
hugs!