Thank you so much for sharing. I have spent a great deal of time on this board this weekend and I have heard so much that I know deep down is true. I know I am not alone and I see that my AH's behavior is not "unusual" for an alcoholic. There are wise people here for sure and I know I am doing the right thing by taking care of myself. But through this all I also wanted to hear something with a happy ending. I feel so stupid sometimes for clutching on to hope when all the signs are otherwise. Your relationship sounds like heaven to me right now and I am so happy for you and for him. I also know that you are grateful for every day because that day may be all you have. I'll keep clutching on to my hope a little tighter and a little longer.