I agree with you lillamy. I think there are different versions of hell that you can live in when you are with an alcoholic partner. Sometimes I wished he would have just gotten drunk at home instead of at the bar because then at least I didnt have to chase him all over the bar and the streets. But, I'm sure its equally as hellish within your own home to watch someone pass out in the living room. This is sad but when would go out, I would get an excitment like a kid on christmas when it was "last call"....I knew my night of hell was soon over. Now, I can barely be out in a bar for more than an hour or two. I hate that I let someone else's drinking habits make me feel bitter about going into bars now...