My first week in recovery
Hi everyone. This is my very first post. I am very encouraged by all of your comments. I've been clean and sober for 3 days now. I went to my first meeting yesterday. I realied that I had to go because I have not been able to stop drinking red wine for more than 2-3 days. It has almost cost me my marriage. The tipping point was that my son was actually covering for my drinking with my wife. He was lying to her so that we would not fight.
I am a christian and a church goer. This is not the life that I want. I am tired of lying and sneaking around. Its just too much energy, guilt, shame, and money. It all consuming: where to get the wine, where to get the money, where to hide it, where to hide and drink it, where to put the empties, always needing mints on me to hide my breath, worried about getting stopped by the cops, worried about killing somebody and gong to jail, etc. I hope AA helps me stop this madness.
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"Honesty is the first chapter in the book of Wisdom" - Thomas Jefferson