Originally Posted by
oak 
I can understand that shame. I have something similar. (not a nurse but in health care)
Maybe a thought that I should have known better. And fear of people knowing. I'm not quite sure why it bothers me but it does.
I can relate....I'm a surgical admin. responsible for guiding and grading senior med students through their surgical requirements to graduate med school and help those that are interested prepare for surgical residency...writing CVs, personal statements, mock interviews and support. i want to stress that i am NOT doing clinical OR work and interacting with patients.
I need to do my job effectively and there is no room for screwing up....i inflicted my *disease* on myself....i've gotten over my mistakes, took about 3-4 weeks off between 2009-2010 and moved on to a better place. I'm great at my profession and take pride in my work....but i was not at my best for about 3-5 months...luckily i had a great assistant and lots of time i could take off.