Really, thank you all for the willingness to share what some of you have went through and the words of support to me.
This was a horrible thing for me (ya think?) and I was so
very ashamed of myself that I wanted to keep it a secret.
I can't afford to keep those kind of secrets anymore.
I have no idea why I didn't just start drinking a few hours
after I was released from jail. It certainly was how
I always operated when anything wrong, or right for
that matter interrupted my drinking for years.
But I didn't. Something feels different in my heart and in
my soul. I believe in a concept of God (I'm a very lapsed Catholic).
I don't have a clue as to what that is. It doesn't matter
at this point because believe me, a power greater then
myself which does include all of you here on SR are
carrying me along.