Originally Posted by
mybump 
I'm so disgusted with myself and with him but our baby will not live in an environment like this...I can't do it anymore...
Use those feelings to empower yourself to make a change, Bump. We can't change anything but the moment we're staring in the face...the moments ahead of us. You can't change the decisions you've made in the past, you can only show yourself the person you can be moving forward.
Welcome to SR and much peace to you! Keep moving forward...there is nothing like the "mama bear" in us to encourage good decision making. LOL