Pecabell,
I'm not an addict but I used to love/live with one!
What qualities of your fiance DO you admire? What is it that you love about him so much that you just can't possibly live without him?
That question was asked of me and it was a real eye opener!
Never marry the one you can live with, marry the one you can't live without! (Dr. Dobson)
Hope to hear back from you!