I've had "crap dominate my life" more than most people.....i turned to heavy drinking because of my depression and both escalated.
I miss drinking too...but now since I'm sober, i feel more like i did when i was younger. Adverse events happen, life is not fair, but I try to be grateful for what i do have and make it better as best I can.
I'm still working on the happiness factor and am optimistic that it might turn up in a while. at least i am not drinking myself to death, looking like crap and wasting my $$.