Hi Joboo; just looked this up after seeing you post on another thread.
Yeah, we've all been there. But as you can see, it can get better! This go-round is better for me in every way—I'm feelings strong, and actually embracing sobriety, instead of just resisting alcohol.
One absolutely critical piece, I think, is that I realized I can never have another drink again. Not one. I will never be a normal drinker. Let's face it, I tried that a million times, and it just didn't work for me. I always dreaded the idea of never drinking—but once I accepted that, recovery became a lot easier. Like mmh said, it's been a huge relief to stop fighting to control it.