Crisco...do what you gotta do to stay sober. Call 3 people a day, go to meetings, Post here...whatever.
No sense beating your self up over this though. You had 2 years! You can get right back there. Your story can be important...stick around and Post on SR to teach newcomers not to let their guard down. You can do this!
I know it sucks and hurts to of drank after all that time...still, move forward.
