Welcome and cyber (((HUGS)))
It's so difficult to look around the life you've been living and realize things have been spinning out of control. As you smile at the neighbors on your way out the door every day. ...
I love it that Pelican has, once again, suggested the stickies above and mentioned Al-anon, just like she did for me months and months ago. In September, I was a glob of confusion, resentment, and pain.
I remember realizing that our problem probably began long before I admitted it. That was a Pie in the Face!
Today, I'm still healing, but on the positive side of things. All the things I've found out here and in Al-anon have gotten me "over the hump".
You get to decide your journey.