Hey TDC,
Thanks for the post man. The feedback I got in person tonight was 100% consistent with what you and Dee stated....esp. the part about discarding the emotion of ashamed or a 'bad program' if it comes up, that's definitely just my mind working against itself and has nothing good to offer my recovery.
Honestly that was the first time (my first 15ish days were a bitter mess - I don't even know what I was thinking if I even was thinking) that I can recall in the last 82 days where there was me, plus a drink - in a thought in my mind! - now that it's happened, I am starting to remember getting sober in 08' and yeah I had thoughts (and dreams, not yet this time with drinking, plenty of regular old nightmares but they have gone away more or less). But like you guys said, it's how we respond to those thoughts that is important.
Thanks for the kind words guys. Time to kick back and watch some tv, sober! :P