I don't know if it's OK for me to post here. I am myself an addict, the "enemy" camp, although of course I understand we are all on the same side.
It's perfectly ok for you to post in this forum. Personally, I learned more about my own recovery from recovered addicts. They were the ones who convinced me that my son's best chance for recovery had nothing to do with me trying to control or convince him. It was addicts in recovery who helped me see that I needed to change me. So....no.....you are not in the enemy camp. There is but one enemy.....and that is drugs/alcohol that steals our loved ones from us.
Your post was beautiful. Thank you for sharing.
gentle hugs