Yeah, the meeting after sounds bad. I keep asking him about that and he keeps saying he had no intention of sleeping with her then, he even told her that.
All he told me is that he couldn't live with himself and wanted to get wasted. Noone else was around and he wanted to drink. And I guess that's how the disease works. All that matters is booze, right? She was the only person who knew what he was going through.
I know it's hard to believe, but he's really not the cheating type. I can see how it's killing him, he would have never expected to be that person. He is getting a new sponsor (he relapsed a month after his old sponsor relapsed, he didn't get a new one), counseling. I know it will take time but we're a strong marriage and we've got so much love for one another. we shall prevail.
Anyway, I think seeing their last conversation is what I needed to get some sort of closure on this whole thing. I know she's gone from our lives forever.