why do i keep doing this - i hate my self
I hate my self right now, I am sitting here drunk and can not sleep - I stoped drinking a few months ago, I am an alcoholic i can't stop drinking. I go a few months and then start again i hate this. my father was a alcoholic and i saw what it did to him. i can remember listening to him throw up at a young age and it killed me to hear that pain. I told myself i would never get to that place and now here i am - sore stomach, high blood pressure losing my hair, stressed out drinking to much and don't know my limit. I want to stop. I want to stop for my family please god why do i keep doing this. i hate that i can't control my self.