Well, you're not really "better" when you are drunk, you just lose your inhibitions. Lots of us thought we were so much more fun to be around and intelligent when we were half lit, but the truth is, we were probably more of a pain in the azz.
There are ways to improve your self-confidence when you are sober. Is it really worth it to pickle your liver and bring on all the health problems related to drinking, just so you're not shy around people?
Welcome to SR! You will find a lot of support here if you want to quit drinking and learn how to have a great life without alcohol. Hope you'll stick around and do a lot of reading and posting. We're here to support you.