Congrats HereandNow!! I just came back from an NA convention, it was awesome. I'm spiritually peakin' right now. It feels better than any drugs ever felt. We have over 3,000 years of clean time at that convention. Besides, AA I don't know any other fellowship/program can do what we do. Keep an open mind at these meetings. As a newcomer it was easy for me to seprate myself out and always focus on the differences. Those who focus on these differences will use. PERIOD. Seperating ourselves out for a moment, turns into a minute, to an hour than to days, then too years, and we either die, go to jail or institutions if we don't make it back. I'm only saying this because I couldn't keep an open-mind it kept me from recoverying for a long time. In that time, I destroyed every relationship that I was in. I lost everything. We believe in you! You will get/live it/learn it if you want it. Keep coming back!