Even repeating the Serenity Prayer didn't help bring peace and calm to my household. So I started doing something really STUPID! I doubled my dosages of my anti-depressants, pain killers, and sleeping pills. I slept a lot more than normal, but I, at least, had numbed my feelings.
Phoenix, this is scary to me. I know your situation is terrible, but isn't numbing your feelings the same as an alcoholic numbing theirs by drinking?
It scares me that you've turned to prescription medication to numb your feelings, not to mention the potential danger of overdosing.
Please take care!