Teggie,
There are a lot of good answers here. Finding a higher power that you are comfortable with is important. The great thing about the 12 steps is that no matter how you define it, the steps work. It still amazes me. I think you are right that if you continue to work the steps, the contact that you feel will strengthen. I have found that the more I know myself, the better I know my HP, the more guidance I feel, the more serenity I have. When I worked step 2, I got everything I could get my hands on in Al-Anon and read. I brought it up at meetings. It all helped. I learned to listen to all the information, and make choices about what was best for me in my recovery. It was so freeing to not be judged because of the spiritual path that I chose. I wasn't one to believe without proof. I looked for proof. I measure that proof in my life today, compared to where I came from. That is my proof. I look for proof every day. And I find it. Hugs, Magic