Hi MJ and a big welcome to SR!!!
I grew up in a family that drinking just seemed a normal thing to do....So I in turn did the same.....I don't blame my family for my drinking, they just set it up in away for me to think that's what people did.....
You can start today by showing your kids a new life...one where they can grow up without alcohol around.....it would be good for you and for your kids.. xoxo