Hi,
I am going to be completely honest here.
It scares me to read about the things you are doing for a thrill.
But MUCH MORE SO, it scares me to think of the innocent people that are on the road or living their lives, when you come barrelling through. They have no choice in what might happen to them if they pass by you.
In my opinion, you have substituted one drug for another. It's great you got off heroin, but you are using sex and thrill-seeking as substitutes. In order to begin to recover, you need to stop those addictions.
I hope you seek help from a counsellor or AA or any method that will help you to recover. We do understand!