xmas presents for A
Well here it is another xmas eve and i still havent bought a present for the AW. every year the same. all the resentments and merry-go-round battles over her drinking doesnt exactly make me want to go out and buy her a xmas gift. It feels more like and obligation instead of something done in the spirit it should be. Earlier during one of our quiet periods i casually mentioned that maybe we could just get the kids gifts and just forget about buying gifts for each other. suggested we go out to dinner as a gift to each other instead of present (though the thought of sitting in a restaurant together stresses me out.) Bad idea. she got angry and told me that not swapping gifts was so "me". Almost started another fight but bit my tongue. Always walking on eggshells. In the meantime last xmas i got socks and underware from her. Anyone else out there struggle with the thought of giving a xmas present to the A in their life? Hard to do when youre always angry at each other.