Well, I think as you proceed forward (and you WILL proceed forward), you'll look back at things like this and consider them a test of character and how well you're working the program. Try to stay ahead of your feelings, keep them in perspective, don't let them grow into some monster that they're not. Try surfing the urge, i.e. think where one drink will lead and realize it goes nowhere good. And things WILL get easier. A month isn't very long, and you'll be amazed at how much easier it is to handle the little crises as time accumulates. GOOD LUCK!