I don't think any of us is weak - but as long as there's an excuse to make drinking viable, most of us would take it...until we learned better ways to deal with stuff.
My addictions took me down to some pretty dark and dangerous places before I decided nothing was more important than staying sober.
I'm not trying to paint you into a corner Eddie, but be smarter than I was, man.
Don't let it take you down too far...don't just do the same things over - do something different this time.
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