Eddie, I am sorry to hear but am glad you are back here!
Look, you need to work your support 100% and if you find that things aren't improving then add to it.....like D said...what about a sponsor?
You are very true in that recovery is starting life all over again. Relearning everything in a new positive light is what I had to do. I did it day by day and worked very hard.
I too had a relapse and I found that just half committing to recovery wasn't working. I may have been sober prior to but I too thought about drinking and it was only a matter of time.
I came back strong and was focused soley on my recovery. I reached out before a potential slip, I came here and shared and read through the posts to keep me on task and I made use of my face to face support.
You can do it Eddie so lets get this going!