I think you were reaching out..It is all a mind game. I think I read something of your thinking of drinking again. I relapsed once. I am thankful to be back on track. I think I move forward due to my belief that second and third chances are not always there. I managed to quit again. Some people go out drinking after a period of sobriety..and they can't seem to get back the desire to be sober again. Hang in there..I do think that sometimes it is a stepping stone back to a firm sobriety if that is what you want. Have a good day Eddie..