I'm sorry to hear that Eddie.
I had that fixation too many times - it's a natural part of sobriety for many of us, I think.
How are you gonna handle it next time?
what are you going to add to your programme now to make sure you beat this next time?
I know you feel battered and bruised right now but now's the time to think about these things mate - this can be your last day one - if you want it to be
D