Welcome back! I know what you mean about that 4-day cycle. When you quit for a few days, you forget all the bad stuff that happened a few days earlier. You might think you can control your drinking when the next weekend rolls around, but the truth is that it's not under control if you end up on a binge, even if you manage a few times in between of having only one or two drinks. The best advice I can give is to keep coming back here every day, even just to read a few posts. That can help you remember what you're trying to do before you start forgetting.