Originally Posted by
thedude2012 
I suppose my rational is if I'm having a good time only after two beers it must be an even better time after 10.
Oh yes, this is the way our minds work when we're addicts. Even as a teenager, I had the idea that if two aspirins helped my headache, then three would be even better.
As others have said, early recovery requires a lot of changes, many of which are difficult. But, we need to make recovery the priority.