New Guy
Hello everyone. Back again after a 10 month hideous. Thought I had everything under control, I was wrong. I started drinking around 14 years old. I knew I loved booze the first time I got drunk. There was nothing more exciting than getting together with friends and getting completely bombed.
I've never been one to have to drink everyday, all day, but once I do start drinking, a large percentage of the time I don't stop until I blackout and pass out. I'm sick of feeling like crap and promised myself last Friday morning was the absolute last time I'll ever hold a toilet bowl and puke in it due to a hangover. I've lost jobs, girlfriends, my driving privileges, trust from the ones who love me, my attention span, and self respect. I'm getting close to 27 and don't want to spend anymore time being trashed and hungover.
I know it's going to be hard not to drink, mostly because my social network consists of people who like to drink, alot, and a city that revolves around drinking, but I know it's what I want. I'm usually good for about 4 days after quitting, then I always ending up convincing myself that I can control my drinking, which sometimes does happen depending on what responsibilities I have in the morning, but, if I have no priorities in the morning i'm 110% committed to getting completely wasted. I dunno why that is as I'm usually having an awesome time after a couple beers. I suppose my rational is if I'm having a good time only after two beers it must be an even better time after 10.
well, I'm kind of rambling but just thought I would introduce myself. If any one has advice for me feel free to reply. -thedude